beast

slow emotions drained away.
every sip makes me die inside just a little more.
every memory lost, is a regret i will hold forever.
the beast has taken over my soul, but i wont let him win.
i can put down the bottle.
i will save my soul, and i will make it grow.
i want everything i do to be my decision, not his.
i want everything i do to be what i want to do, not what anyone else wants.
i want to take that piece of me back.
i want to remember every second that i'm alive, becasue i'm alive for a reason.
i want my innocence back.
i once thought he could numb the pain...
but when i wake up, the pain is much sharper.
the beast is killing me, but i will grow, and i will kill him.

romance

everything is inside out
turn this way
run that way
scattered thoughts
chasing after the beast
just one more bottle
i'll be ok
silence kills
it burns the lining of my stomach
run
run
i will catch you soon
just one more bottle
i'll be just fine
i am turning blue
i can hold my breath
i can dance through midnight
just one more bottle
the pain is gone
chase you away
run you out
one night less painfull
one night less hatefull
i found the beast
just one more bottle
just one more
one bottle of beast
and you are gone,
and so am i

1,2,3 you cut out my heart
i'll never let you go
i'll never LET you go

(i can only wish)

you rip my heart out.

i feed it to msyelf on a plate hoping you'll do the same tomorow.

maybe i'll choke.

maybe i'll die.

maybe you won't get another chance to rip it out again.