beast

slow emotions drained away.
every sip makes me die inside just a little more.
every memory lost, is a regret i will hold forever.
the beast has taken over my soul, but i wont let him win.
i can put down the bottle.
i will save my soul, and i will make it grow.
i want everything i do to be my decision, not his.
i want everything i do to be what i want to do, not what anyone else wants.
i want to take that piece of me back.
i want to remember every second that i'm alive, becasue i'm alive for a reason.
i want my innocence back.
i once thought he could numb the pain...
but when i wake up, the pain is much sharper.
the beast is killing me, but i will grow, and i will kill him.